Sunday, October 15, 2006

A Lesson in Humility

Have you ever been told something about yourself that hurt because you knew, deep down inside, it was partly true? That happened to me this week. I was confronted with an issue about my personality that I know is an area of weakness, yet somehow it really bothered me that it was brought up.

I have been obsessing about it ever since. I keep replaying the conversation in my head and wondering if I was being defensive, not wanting to admit that this could be a problem. As much as I know it's an area of weakness, I also do feel that the way it was presented to me was not entirely accurate. After working in my field for over 4 years, this is the first time anyone has ever brought up this issue. So I keep thinking, Perhaps this is an isolated issue from one particular interaction. Or, perhaps this has been an ongoing problem with the way I interact, and no one has ever said something.

Regardless, I have been praying that God will reveal the truth to me. That I won't be too proud to accept the truth and work on it. And that I won't obsess but rather work on my attitude and gentleness with others.


Shannon said...

I'll be praying for this--miss you my friend.

Brenda said...

Esther...You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Lots of love.
--Brenda M.

Ana said...

i love you esther! and so does everyone else at youth group! and of course the love of a bunch of wacky teenagers is all one needs right? haha i'll be praying for you and maybe some time away with us crazy kids will do you some good. see you bright and early on saturday!!!!!

i'm not excited about the trip or anything.....